continued

And so a broken heart is the price we pay, cleansed by the tears shed along the way but these hard times, that free us will pass away, and lead us to a better day.

So why worry, just do your best and leave the rest, then look beyond the darkness, the learning, to happi-ness.

Lyrics from The Learning composed by Brad Kalita.

My worldly goals were wonderful, altruistic in many aspects: the preservation & highest use of the land while helping others to renew and heal.

Many find reason to question the existence of an all-powerful God with so much suffering having occurred to the innocent throughout the ages. Was Jesus wondrously delusional in a beautiful way? Did his disciples exaggerate to have a personal sense of future or many that followed delete, distort embellish to feel superior, or other reasons exploit his teachings? Leaving one with the premise that if there is divine order then life's primary purpose is to learn and evolve to interact harmoniously. Though there can be no doubt for those of progressive inclination living is a great character building, many experiences seem pointless and even cruel ... still there is hope: For just as it’s unreasonable to assume the existence of the divine, it’s also to conclude its non-existence, for as myself, many people around the world regardless of religion or otherwise have had similar miraculous experiences with no other possible explanation other than being of divine origin (i.e. see oberf.org). Having exhausted logical explanations, could inexplicable chaos and confusion serve a greater purpose ... of purification of motive, for its own sake ... in other words regardless of what the future may hold aspiring to whatever manifest the greatest harmony for all things ... and therefore our greater and truer "salvation" as a planet, race and individual.

After many years of hard work, considerable cost & sacrifice they had become a reality ... upon reaching that very stage they were crushed. Why would the universe bring about or allow such a tragedy & where now could I turn having lost faith in: Work hard, Persist = Success? Finally after great sorrow & contemplation I realized that by losing my worldly aspirations I was being forced to focus and cultivate in proper order a more self-contained & complete foundation from which to expand out-ward. You see, having in a sense put so much emphasis on worldly/material goals subject to the vagaries of same I'd had allowed important pre-requisites unattended or essences to be eclipsed.

Such heart-breaking lessons are " the quickened path". Those having continual success yet lacking properly based/ordered priorities eventually are taught successes limitations, diminishing returns & inherent impediments to genuine progress/success ...if necessary to the point of exhaustion, thereby willingly giving-up such pursuits to embrace simplicity, balance ... or purification. For worldly success craves ever more to maintain a satisfactory level of gratification & one of the greatest impediments to genuine progress, harmony and happiness.

Each is given their own unique circumstances tailored to bring about essential growth in accordance to the most pressing need given ones level of evolvement. The sooner the integration of harmonious universal principles the sooner the realization of lasting freedom & the fulfillment of life's greater purpose.